Lonely People in The Crowd

Lonely people in the crowd
May be i am wrong, they are proud

They hardly know just each other
The rest of the world, they just don't bother

I tried hard to say one of them hi
He was not shy, but just said bye

My instincts hating me with this freeze
I am not among those, to accept this breeze

I finally picked up a lonely clown
He just seemed a little out of town

Talking to everyone,with a happy crown
He ended up fake, when removed his gown

Joined the same lonely crowd in a second
Just like a stone in a hanging pendant

I just realized, i am also one of them
I have no right, to point at them

That was the moment to make a choice
Either leave or pay the price

I can't bear the freeze anymore
Did all what i could, just cant adore

I left the lonely.. Lonelier than ever
I decided myself.. To return there never

That's just past.. From my dreams
Every time i see, my heart screams

I am breaking the ice with every stroke
Shouting in the crowd with all my throat

Not even a single ear to hear
How they deserve , any tear

Emotions exist with lots of warmth
Cold hearts just have nothing but wrath

Its my choice to mix with them
Or let my feelings make me a gem

Aghaz

Abhi to aghaz e shab hay
Zara pehar to badalnay dey

Abhi say sochta hay kya
Zara mujh ko khud men dhalnay day

Pashamaniyon men Ku hay muntazir
Zara rut ko to sambhalnay dey..

Itni hidat say na berha marasim
Zara mom ho key pighalnay dey

Na dikha raasta jugnu ki tarah mujhey
Zara Ker hosla, Thora khud bhi chalnay dey

Bichar gaya Jo tujh say, forun na phir say mil
Zara yaad aanay dey, Thora to machalnay dey

Ab kyun chalay tanha, is dhund men hassan
Zara thikana dhoond lay, hamsafar to milnay dey

Main mohabbat hoon

found this in one of my emails from 2010

Main saahil pey likhee hoee ibaarat nahee
Jo lehron se mit jaati hay

Main baarish ki barasti boond nahee
Jo baras ker tham jaati hay

Main khwab nahee
Jisey dekha aur bhula dya

Main shama nahee
Jisey phoonka aur bujha dya

Main hawa ka jhonka nahee
Jo aaya aur guzar gaya

Main chand bhi nahee
Jo raat k baad dhal jaye

Main to woh ahsaas hoon
Jo tujh main lahoo ban ker gardish karay

Main to woh rang hoon
Jo teray dil pay charay to kabhi na mitay

Main woh geet hoon
Jo teray labon se juda na hoga

Main to woh parwaana hoon
Jo jalta rahayga magar fana na hoga

Khwab,ibaarat, hawa ki tarah
Chand,boond, shama ki tarah

Meray mitnay ka sawaal nahee
Kyunkay MÄÏN TÖ MÖHÄßßÄT HÖÖN

Aur Mohabbat Koi Sawaal Nahee....!!!

I hate love

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.